Solution To Writer’s Block

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Creating the identity of the biography (Viking Funeral) by fire that I’ve been writing about my brother’s life under duress has been a challenge.

He’s permanently unavailable to interview.

I have had to rely on memory for everything.

I have to decide how to tell the story, what to leave in, what to leave out.

I have struggled for seven years with the ending. SEVEN. YEARS. SEVEN! I don’t talk too much about the book with my darling husband, because it makes him sad. I promise it’s not a sad story, my DH is very tender-hearted.

Ok, maybe there are some moments that tug at a heartstring here and there. Anyway, I’ve written 100k words. I wrote 35k right after Dave died. Then writer’s block. Then the balance was written two years ago. It’s a biography, so I can’t just make shit up, plus I’m not a creative writer. Unable to decide how to finish, I have filled my time with reading biographies, just so you know what I’ve been doing the last seven years.

Tonight I told my husband of my struggle with the ending. In less than 10 minutes of Q&A, a few moments of silence while he was “thinking about it,” he made the perfect suggestion.

I initially thought, no, I’ll have to rewrite everything. Then I realized it was the perfect ending and I could not stop laughing. My husband saves the day… again! He is a natural visionary. Man I could have had a Pulitzer YEARS ago! hahahahahah.

Writer’s Avoidance…Anyone?

Avoidance

The process is addictive. Or maybe it is me hanging on to my grief for fear of forgetting him? Not every person we come in contact with or, in some cases, not all those we are related to leave a gaping wide hole in your life when they are gone, like a category 5 hurricane.

I’ve found a few more biographies to read thanks to my constant cruising around Instagram. I’m convinced my continued search for more books to read is all part of my subconscious avoidance of finishing this Viking Funeral biography.

I swear I’m almost done. My foundational metaphor was there all along and now, with the gorgeous artwork featured on the cover by Doug Cavanaugh @celtichammerclub ,
I really understand why I was so drawn to this gorgeous Norse mythological creature Fenrir. DOUG!

I really should get back to work and stop finding diversions already. XO